Genel Ronquillo

It’s a great feeling to return a favor to a friend who truly has been there for you whenever you needed help.

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As my thoughts flow though my stream of consciousness, I have difficulty catching enough words to form a complete sentence to describe how I feel.

Happiness. Frustration. Excitement. Worry.

A potpourri of emotions collide with one another creating an awful stench that wreaks of confusion.

Confused of how I feel. Confused at what I should be doing at the moment.

Physically, mentally, and emotionally I am tired.

Sleep, is what I have too much of.

I’ve slept so much that I begin to forget whether I am living in a fantasy land or in reality.

What is…? What if…?

Why?! How?!

Heavy weights are placed atop my shoulders, attempting to push me further and further into the ground.

Moments like this is when I just want to let go and just fall down in defeat, but then I remind myself that in times of difficulties, that’s when one must stay the strongest.

So, here I am.

I’m on the edge of the cliff looking down, ready to let go, and ready to allow myself to fall deep down into a pit of failure and regret. The only thing keeping me from falling is the last bit of strength, determination, and faith that things will get better…that life will get better.

I can make the easy decision to just fall, but instead I have chosen to keep my feet firm on the ground and hold on.

I can do this, I know I can.

I’ve gone too far and worked too hard to give up now.

• Walked in just a minute late after the bell rang, but good thing Ms. Larkin is really nice and didn’t get mad! (:
• Busy work. Too much busy work, but at least it means more point for us to get!
• Working on the AP Calculus movie project! I can’t wait to actually start filming!
• Finished my last slide for my presentation for Falvo’s class. Yaay! I got an A on both the powerpoint and the presentation! Wooh!
• Listened attentively to the presentation of others
• Showed Mr. Meyer my pictures for the photo spread assignment and volunteered to be one of the first five students to use eDesign.
• Mr. Meyer asked us to write what positions we would want for Code. No words can explain the emotions I felt to just write on the index card.
• Got lunch with the father, Iggy!! (:
• Working on an assignment, sword fighting with Kevin Guzman, Zhemaia’s natural “fake-ness” to me, and eating during lunch!
• Turned in the movie analysis assignment and then just went over the test that we took.
• Computer lab! Erika and I were trying to rap, but it was difficult for the song to upload on the computer. Stupid school computers and their “Access denied” pages -___-

• It felt so weird waking up late on a Sunday morning. I miss JIL SD3 already :(
• Eat. Eat. Eat. Eat.
• Homework. Homework. Homework.
• Got ready to go to Darielle’s first birthday party!
• Played Speed, Super Speed, and Spoons with the Youth.
• Caught up with Abi, Hannah, and Joy!
• Took pictures with Abi, Joy, and Jazmine!
• Watched a twerking video. It was too hilarious! (x
• Took home a bunch of ziplock bags full of oranges!